I have lost track of the number of times that I have posted the above on all the various social media channels with hope that folks would step back from their lives if only for few hours here or there.
To be honest, over the last year or so, I have lost track of the number of times I’d forgotten my mantra “Rest, relax, rejuvenate. Keep it simple, calm, and clear.” under my breathe as I headed into a new day. Everything needed to be planned meticulously in advance around my new dietary needs and carried out in a precise order. Every new challenge needed to be fit into a schedule centred around the “Yes, okay, but when will I be able to eat? What will that food do to my blood sugar? How much insulin should I inject and how long before my meal should I inject it? What level of physical activity do I expect to be going through today? What kind of weather will we be having and how will that affect the blood sugar?”
Life was anything but simple, calm, and clear.
- Medical appointments became my new “day off work activity”.
- The hunt for a family physician became my new hobby.
- Napping took on a degree of priority not seen since my infancy.
Yada, yada, yada….
And all that paid off apparently: a recent blood test showed a reduction of a key component back to nearly pre-diabetic levels.
However, I was still filtering all my daily activities through the above questions. It seems that I was having a bit of a cognitive dissonance going on between the ears. Until today.
I caught myself dreaming of the “good old pre-diabetic days” while at the same time grumping about some upcoming days where I wouldn’t be chasing the almighty dollar. And something wonderful happened.
I called myself on my bullshit.
So, the next few days are mine. Somewhat unstructured. No new challenges. Looking forward to it.
And promising to do it more often.